Life update!
I am currently on lunch break at work. Thank heavens. I am feeling pretty unfulfilled by my current clerical career (to say it politely), but I have decided not to look too hard for another job until it's a bit closer to winter. Ideally I'll be aiming for afternoons/evening work hours so that I get in more snowboarding time, but we will see how successful I am at accomplishing that. I'd love a magical, high-paying job to just pop-up and exclaim "you're hired!", but it's hard to find anything but low-paying seasonal employment or the typical 9-5 job around here.
In addition to my office gig, I have also been waitressing. The money isn't as great as I'd hoped, mostly due to overstaffing, but the base wage-rate is helpful. I get $8 per hour before tips, so even on a slow day, things work out okay. I am no longer working at the TVCS preschool and I've decided not to return in the fall. The commute was long, the pay was lower than I'm making at my other job, the tasks were unchallenging, and I didn't feel like I was learning/growing in any way. I think it's a great program, but not something I want to go back to doing in two weeks.
I am thinking about graduate school, but still terrified of the GRE. I also keep finding myself contemplating doing another program abroad, but my health has been sub-par lately, so I really need to get that together before I dare venture too far from home. For now, I'm focusing on obtaining a ski-pass and getting myself in better physical shape by the time I have to be a bridesmaid in Laura & Max's wedding. I do recognize the inanity of my perfectionistic tendencies, particularly with regards to my weight, but I think exercise is healthy. I would like my jeans to fit better, which I feel is a good, objective measure of things. I had been running primarily, but started getting some joint issues even from using the elipticross trainer. True to my boyfriend's advice, I've been trying to vary my routine more to resolve that. I've been trying out Zumba & some step classes, in addition to incorporating free weight exercises etc. Honestly I do need to go back on my strict, albeit boring, vegetable & protein diet (similar to Paleo, really). I get so dulled out by it, but my stomach is very angry, my health is declining, and my pants are tightening, so I guess today is the day to start. Goodbye gluten-dairy-nut-free pumpkin cookie, hello green leafy vegetables
As a treat I bought myself smoked salmon and carrots for lunch. Thinking of making pork-chops and butternut squash for dinner. Sorry mango sorbet, you can't join in the fun.
Well, back to work...
Thursday, August 15, 2013
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Being Kicked Out: An Update on the Healing Process
I was medically separated from the Peace Corps on November 13th, 2012. In many ways it was absolutely devastating. I had been fighting to stay in Tanzania, putting up with fainting spells and chronic vomiting, all because I wanted to be there for my school. For my students. For the other volunteers who felt like family. I wanted to stay, to be like the volunteers I met who had made it through all 27 months. Yes, I was worried about my health, but I was also hopeful I could fix myself, or that somebody could find the answer to my gastroenterological woes. At the same time, I felt guilty. I never lied to the doctors about how sick I was. I could have left-out more details, maybe neglected to call when things were worsening, or exaggerated how much I was able to eat and drink. But I didn't--I told the truth, and in doing so, wound up costing myself my service. The way had I figured, I didn't need to quit, because if I needed to be sent home, I would be sent home. In the end, I was given two months to suffer before they ultimately did make that call for me.
Being medically separated was not the outcome I wanted, but I must say in a certain sense it was relieving. I had spent two months being terribly sick, unable to get proper medical assistance or answers.
Honestly, it was exhausting.
Not being able to eat properly made me irritable and impatient. Being sick and far from home made me long for American comforts and mommy-hugs. Waiting weeks for a package to arrive with supplements from America was beyond frustrating, especially since I knew that many of the PC staff thought they wouldn't help anyway. Moreover, my inability to quit--my feeling that I could never be the one to end my service--made me question just how far I'd go to fulfill my Peace Corps dream.
Part of me really hoped that I would get my chance to get better back home. I pleaded with the doctor; I asked to be granted 45 days of medical evacuation, a chance to go home, get better, and come back again. When the decision was made, I was angry that I wasn't given the 45 days--it felt unfair. It felt like they were giving up on me. Not me as a liability case, but me as a person. I cried, I whined, and I complained to my fellow volunteers. Nonetheless, part of me also wasn't sure if medical evacuation made sense anyway. I asked myself: What if I didn't get better? What if I did regain my health just to get sick again once I came back? What if my body just can't recover from the parasites and bacterial infections that come with living in Africa?
I was disappointed by the decision, but I was relieved to have an answer. I no longer had to wonder if I'd be staying, where my new site would be, and if I could get the proper supplements, pills, or tests in Tanzania. I had my answer: I was done. I could go back to taking hot American showers and wearing jeans. I was going home.
At first I was really optimistic. I was excited to get American medical care. I was happy to be going back to my family. And, despite everything, I kept telling myself that there were so many opportunities out there--that I would find something new, amazing, and fulfilling to do with my life. I accepted that it was time for me to go home. I knew that I couldn't continue on in Tanzania being weak, sick, and frustrated. It was time for answers, and time to regain my health.
Then the depression hit. I was back home, with my parents, stuck in a position I told myself I would never be in again. It wasn't that I hated being home, or that I don't love my parents. My house is awesome, my town is quaint, and my family is beyond loving. Needless to say, I just felt lost. I felt like a car stuck in neutral. I was trying to be happy, optimistic, and brave, but part of me felt like it had died. I was right back in Blue Hill, without a direction, goals, or a real plan. I was going nowhere, and I had no idea where I wanted to go. Health-wise, I was slowly improving a little, but in certain ways my health got even worse once I was home. My hair began to fall out in handfuls. I started experiencing lower GI issues that I hadn't dealt with in months. My headaches became unbearable. I was worried. I was frustrated. And I suddenly realized that all that medical care I had dreamed about just wasn't going to happen. I didn't have health insurance, and I didn't really like the AfterCorps plan. Plus, I just couldn't blindly trust that FECA would cover thousands of dollars of medical testing. I could hear them now. "You had preexisting stomach problems." "This sickness is not related to your Peace Corps service." "We won't pay." So I worked with my homeopathic doctor from back home, and hoped things would improve, but never got any endoscopies or specialized tests for inflammatory conditions or diseases.
After a week or so at home, I began applying to fellowship programs in the hopes that I would have a direction again. I felt excited by the idea of teaching, but really I think I just needed to feel like I still had a purpose. I had long dreamt of a career in International Relations, and that dream had suddenly died. I accepted that I would be stuck in America for the foreseeable future. No more thoughts of diplomacy abroad--I told myself that I needed to learn to think more domestically. I signed my AT&T contract with the notion that I wouldn't be leaving the States for at least two years--good bye foreign affairs, hello domestic politics.
Over time my health began improving slowly. I could eat more food, drink more water, and my esophagus finally was getting a well needed break. I decided that I was well enough to fly the coop. I knew that I needed to go somewhere, but I didn't want to take a job that would interfere with my fellowship opportunities. Honestly, I also just didn't really want to take a serious job--I wanted to have fun. I wanted to figure myself out. I wanted to get my passion back--have a real direction again that I felt sure about. So, I turned my sights to Jackson Hole. For years I had wanted to be a ski-bumb, if only for one season, and I was excited by the prospect of seeing the West. It would be a new adventure, one that would allow me to do one of my favorite things in the world: snowboarding. I have always loved flying down the mountain--it is one of the few things I can feel 100% happy doing--and it seemed like the perfect time to go try my luck in a mountain town. Plus, because my boyfriend had also come back home from Tanzania and moved out there, it felt like maybe things would work out for us if I took a chance and moved far away from home. So I did the most spontaneous thing I've ever done in my life. I bought a car, packed my stuff the next day, and headed south.
True to my Type-A personality, I didn't just go. First I hit up an interview for NY Teaching Fellows before heading across country. I was hesitant about going, but I went to the city, caught up with some Smithies, and enjoyed some of New York's allergy-friendly dining options. I figured as long as I was trying to get back on track, it would be okay if I didn't have much direction for a little while. And with that in mind, I headed West.
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I have now been in Jackson for 3 1/2 months. Even though I haven't really ended up living the "ski-bumb" lifestyle, I did get to go snowboarding every weekend, while still doing two jobs that seem worthwhile. I have been working as the Executive Assistant at a construction company, and pre-school teacher/after-school assistant at one of the Teton Valley Science Schools. Both jobs feel very legitimate to me. I'm running an office, that has to be a valuable experience right? I figure it doesn't matter that I don't want a career in construction--I'm building skills, that's what counts. Plus, I'm still working with kids, keeping my feet rooted in schools, all while living in a beautiful location. It isn't the ski-bumb life I imagined, but I'm too much of a perfectionist to completely let go of the 9-5 workload.
In any case, I have been facing ups and downs in multiple facets of my life, especially with my Subaru. I'm happy I came out here, though things haven't been easy. So, in regards to getting over the loss of my PC dream, I will say the following:
It is hard when a dream dies. It hurts. It feels personal.
It is hard not to feel betrayed. To feel abandoned by the Peace Corps, discarded even.
It is even harder not to want to go back.
I think about reapplying all the time. I feel like my commitment hasn't been fulfilled--I WANT to fulfill it. I could go back, I could help people, I could finish what I started! But part of me doesn't want to go back. I don't want to face the heartbreak if I can't stay healthy abroad--and I wonder if they'd even let me return. I am a lot better now, but I am still not exactly "healthy". Stomach pain? Intestinal issues? Vomiting? I still struggle with all of those things, I just can manage them now. I can run 13 miles on the elipticross trainer and still have energy to spare. But do I think I've really solved my problem? No. I rarely feel well, and sometimes I get sick for no real reason. Can I drink a liter of water in an hour now? YES! But, I still am not where I'd like to be health-wise. I need testing. I need doctors who think outside the box. I need dietary guidance and supplements. Unfortunately, I only have access to some of those things, so I doubt without a concrete diagnosis of why body is the way it is, they'd let me go back to Tanzania. I know that I could go back and be okay--I'd bring supplements, and be sure to be in charge of my own food and water whenever possible. I think I could do it-- I just don't know if the government will share that sentiment with me.
But I still hope. Even now, as I'm typing, part of me just wants to get back on a plane and try again. I want to plead, I want to beg, I want to get another shot even if the staff in TZ have their doubts.
Letting go isn't easy. Feeling like your life isn't over post-PC isn't easy, either. It's hard to find the good sometimes. To know which direction to go, or even want to make plans anymore. Nonetheless, I'm trying. I have been thinking a lot about what I want to do, and in doing so, I've realized I'm not ready for a teaching fellowship in an inner-city school right now. Maybe in the future that will be a good option for me--but when I put my time into something, I want to be sure I have the energy and passion to keep me going. Right now, I'm just not ready to commit five years to NYC Teaching Fellows. I received the offer, and I appreciate it, but it just isn't the right fit. Instead, I'm setting my sights on graduate school. I have a true interest in International Education Development/International Education Policy, and I want to explore that road. It combines my interests, there is room for growth, and it's something new, exciting, and promising.
----
Dreams aside, for now I'm working in Jackson, WY. My friends all think I'm in Colorado or Wisconsin half the time. And everyone keeps asking when I'll be coming home or getting a move-on with my career. I don't know how long I'll stay here, though I am definitely setting up things for the summer. Waitressing is going to be added into the mix. Work, work, work, and hopefully some GRE studying and fitness training are going to dominate my summer.
Things have been very up-and-down, but I'm hopeful that I'll smooth out the bumps in the road. For now, I guess time will tell! Plus, I just can't wait to see Jellystone :)
Being medically separated was not the outcome I wanted, but I must say in a certain sense it was relieving. I had spent two months being terribly sick, unable to get proper medical assistance or answers.
Honestly, it was exhausting.
Not being able to eat properly made me irritable and impatient. Being sick and far from home made me long for American comforts and mommy-hugs. Waiting weeks for a package to arrive with supplements from America was beyond frustrating, especially since I knew that many of the PC staff thought they wouldn't help anyway. Moreover, my inability to quit--my feeling that I could never be the one to end my service--made me question just how far I'd go to fulfill my Peace Corps dream.
Part of me really hoped that I would get my chance to get better back home. I pleaded with the doctor; I asked to be granted 45 days of medical evacuation, a chance to go home, get better, and come back again. When the decision was made, I was angry that I wasn't given the 45 days--it felt unfair. It felt like they were giving up on me. Not me as a liability case, but me as a person. I cried, I whined, and I complained to my fellow volunteers. Nonetheless, part of me also wasn't sure if medical evacuation made sense anyway. I asked myself: What if I didn't get better? What if I did regain my health just to get sick again once I came back? What if my body just can't recover from the parasites and bacterial infections that come with living in Africa?
I was disappointed by the decision, but I was relieved to have an answer. I no longer had to wonder if I'd be staying, where my new site would be, and if I could get the proper supplements, pills, or tests in Tanzania. I had my answer: I was done. I could go back to taking hot American showers and wearing jeans. I was going home.
At first I was really optimistic. I was excited to get American medical care. I was happy to be going back to my family. And, despite everything, I kept telling myself that there were so many opportunities out there--that I would find something new, amazing, and fulfilling to do with my life. I accepted that it was time for me to go home. I knew that I couldn't continue on in Tanzania being weak, sick, and frustrated. It was time for answers, and time to regain my health.
Then the depression hit. I was back home, with my parents, stuck in a position I told myself I would never be in again. It wasn't that I hated being home, or that I don't love my parents. My house is awesome, my town is quaint, and my family is beyond loving. Needless to say, I just felt lost. I felt like a car stuck in neutral. I was trying to be happy, optimistic, and brave, but part of me felt like it had died. I was right back in Blue Hill, without a direction, goals, or a real plan. I was going nowhere, and I had no idea where I wanted to go. Health-wise, I was slowly improving a little, but in certain ways my health got even worse once I was home. My hair began to fall out in handfuls. I started experiencing lower GI issues that I hadn't dealt with in months. My headaches became unbearable. I was worried. I was frustrated. And I suddenly realized that all that medical care I had dreamed about just wasn't going to happen. I didn't have health insurance, and I didn't really like the AfterCorps plan. Plus, I just couldn't blindly trust that FECA would cover thousands of dollars of medical testing. I could hear them now. "You had preexisting stomach problems." "This sickness is not related to your Peace Corps service." "We won't pay." So I worked with my homeopathic doctor from back home, and hoped things would improve, but never got any endoscopies or specialized tests for inflammatory conditions or diseases.
After a week or so at home, I began applying to fellowship programs in the hopes that I would have a direction again. I felt excited by the idea of teaching, but really I think I just needed to feel like I still had a purpose. I had long dreamt of a career in International Relations, and that dream had suddenly died. I accepted that I would be stuck in America for the foreseeable future. No more thoughts of diplomacy abroad--I told myself that I needed to learn to think more domestically. I signed my AT&T contract with the notion that I wouldn't be leaving the States for at least two years--good bye foreign affairs, hello domestic politics.
Over time my health began improving slowly. I could eat more food, drink more water, and my esophagus finally was getting a well needed break. I decided that I was well enough to fly the coop. I knew that I needed to go somewhere, but I didn't want to take a job that would interfere with my fellowship opportunities. Honestly, I also just didn't really want to take a serious job--I wanted to have fun. I wanted to figure myself out. I wanted to get my passion back--have a real direction again that I felt sure about. So, I turned my sights to Jackson Hole. For years I had wanted to be a ski-bumb, if only for one season, and I was excited by the prospect of seeing the West. It would be a new adventure, one that would allow me to do one of my favorite things in the world: snowboarding. I have always loved flying down the mountain--it is one of the few things I can feel 100% happy doing--and it seemed like the perfect time to go try my luck in a mountain town. Plus, because my boyfriend had also come back home from Tanzania and moved out there, it felt like maybe things would work out for us if I took a chance and moved far away from home. So I did the most spontaneous thing I've ever done in my life. I bought a car, packed my stuff the next day, and headed south.
True to my Type-A personality, I didn't just go. First I hit up an interview for NY Teaching Fellows before heading across country. I was hesitant about going, but I went to the city, caught up with some Smithies, and enjoyed some of New York's allergy-friendly dining options. I figured as long as I was trying to get back on track, it would be okay if I didn't have much direction for a little while. And with that in mind, I headed West.
----
I have now been in Jackson for 3 1/2 months. Even though I haven't really ended up living the "ski-bumb" lifestyle, I did get to go snowboarding every weekend, while still doing two jobs that seem worthwhile. I have been working as the Executive Assistant at a construction company, and pre-school teacher/after-school assistant at one of the Teton Valley Science Schools. Both jobs feel very legitimate to me. I'm running an office, that has to be a valuable experience right? I figure it doesn't matter that I don't want a career in construction--I'm building skills, that's what counts. Plus, I'm still working with kids, keeping my feet rooted in schools, all while living in a beautiful location. It isn't the ski-bumb life I imagined, but I'm too much of a perfectionist to completely let go of the 9-5 workload.
In any case, I have been facing ups and downs in multiple facets of my life, especially with my Subaru. I'm happy I came out here, though things haven't been easy. So, in regards to getting over the loss of my PC dream, I will say the following:
It is hard when a dream dies. It hurts. It feels personal.
It is hard not to feel betrayed. To feel abandoned by the Peace Corps, discarded even.
It is even harder not to want to go back.
I think about reapplying all the time. I feel like my commitment hasn't been fulfilled--I WANT to fulfill it. I could go back, I could help people, I could finish what I started! But part of me doesn't want to go back. I don't want to face the heartbreak if I can't stay healthy abroad--and I wonder if they'd even let me return. I am a lot better now, but I am still not exactly "healthy". Stomach pain? Intestinal issues? Vomiting? I still struggle with all of those things, I just can manage them now. I can run 13 miles on the elipticross trainer and still have energy to spare. But do I think I've really solved my problem? No. I rarely feel well, and sometimes I get sick for no real reason. Can I drink a liter of water in an hour now? YES! But, I still am not where I'd like to be health-wise. I need testing. I need doctors who think outside the box. I need dietary guidance and supplements. Unfortunately, I only have access to some of those things, so I doubt without a concrete diagnosis of why body is the way it is, they'd let me go back to Tanzania. I know that I could go back and be okay--I'd bring supplements, and be sure to be in charge of my own food and water whenever possible. I think I could do it-- I just don't know if the government will share that sentiment with me.
But I still hope. Even now, as I'm typing, part of me just wants to get back on a plane and try again. I want to plead, I want to beg, I want to get another shot even if the staff in TZ have their doubts.
Letting go isn't easy. Feeling like your life isn't over post-PC isn't easy, either. It's hard to find the good sometimes. To know which direction to go, or even want to make plans anymore. Nonetheless, I'm trying. I have been thinking a lot about what I want to do, and in doing so, I've realized I'm not ready for a teaching fellowship in an inner-city school right now. Maybe in the future that will be a good option for me--but when I put my time into something, I want to be sure I have the energy and passion to keep me going. Right now, I'm just not ready to commit five years to NYC Teaching Fellows. I received the offer, and I appreciate it, but it just isn't the right fit. Instead, I'm setting my sights on graduate school. I have a true interest in International Education Development/International Education Policy, and I want to explore that road. It combines my interests, there is room for growth, and it's something new, exciting, and promising.
----
Dreams aside, for now I'm working in Jackson, WY. My friends all think I'm in Colorado or Wisconsin half the time. And everyone keeps asking when I'll be coming home or getting a move-on with my career. I don't know how long I'll stay here, though I am definitely setting up things for the summer. Waitressing is going to be added into the mix. Work, work, work, and hopefully some GRE studying and fitness training are going to dominate my summer.
Things have been very up-and-down, but I'm hopeful that I'll smooth out the bumps in the road. For now, I guess time will tell! Plus, I just can't wait to see Jellystone :)
Friday, February 1, 2013
February 1st, Life Update
Updates!
1. I'm moving into my new place tomorrow. I'm renting a room...it's super close to town, cozy, cute, affordable. I'm psyched and looking up lot's of decorating ideas on Pinterest.
2. Two jobs: (1) Pre-school/after-school teacher at the Teton Valley Community School and (2) Executive Assistant at Serenity Inc.
3. I got a gym membership today. Woot.
4. Still figuring out my ski-pass deal...but going to go tomorrow one way or another.
5. Loving Jackson, just wishing I had more time to go snowboarding since that's the reason I'm really here. Considering staying through the summer, though, too...
1. I'm moving into my new place tomorrow. I'm renting a room...it's super close to town, cozy, cute, affordable. I'm psyched and looking up lot's of decorating ideas on Pinterest.
2. Two jobs: (1) Pre-school/after-school teacher at the Teton Valley Community School and (2) Executive Assistant at Serenity Inc.
3. I got a gym membership today. Woot.
4. Still figuring out my ski-pass deal...but going to go tomorrow one way or another.
5. Loving Jackson, just wishing I had more time to go snowboarding since that's the reason I'm really here. Considering staying through the summer, though, too...
Thursday, January 17, 2013
January 17, In Jackson
I am currently figuring out things here in Jackson. I'm currently staying with Sam and his roommates Tom & Barb--super nice, hospitable people! I have a part-time gig in Victor, ID at the Teton Community School. I am working some at the preschool and also at the after-school program there. I may also intern in the elementary classes, but we'll see how my schedule works out. Driving the pass isn't optimal, but I'm not sure if I really want to get housing in Victor. It is cheap out there, but I kind of want to stay in Jackson/am hoping to get employment here.
I went snowboarding on Tuesday and it was A-MAZ-ING. I LOVE IT SO MUCH. Excited to go again soon!
Other updates:
I went snowboarding on Tuesday and it was A-MAZ-ING. I LOVE IT SO MUCH. Excited to go again soon!
Other updates:
- I slammed my finger in the car door on Monday. It is sort of concerning now since it's still very swollen/numb/discolored. I feel like the tip of my finger may actually be broken, but I don't think there's much to do for that.
- My car had to be fixed AGAIN--spark plugs were causing the engine to buck and the "check engine" light to flash. Problem resolved at Sue's Roos down in Idaho. What-what.
- Xbox is officially set up. New games bought. Netflix capabilities established.
- I love the grocery stores here. Epic Jade-friendly-food-options.
- It is BEAUTIFUL out here! Really digging it so far. I am very happy I came out here.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
January 12, Car Problems
Sigh.
Wouldn't you know I have a fuel leak. I'm currently getting it fixed and hoping they'll be done by 11:00 so I can head out after my check-out time is up. For now I'm camping out at the Best Western and biding my time.
Yesterday I stayed in Denver. I had a virtual interview with Citizen Schools. I also threw together a letter of intent for TFA just for kicks. It was storming outside and the roads were bad, so I didn't really venture too far. I did discover a delicious butternut squash soufflé I could actually eat. City grocery stores are the best. Whole Foods is by far my favorite, but I didn't make it there yesterday. I'm hoping they have a good organic section in Jackson. We do back in Blue Hill, and that's population 3000 or something, so....why not Wyoming? Gluten free, dairy free, sugar-free lovin!
Oh, and peanut-free. Don't like hives. Nasty business.
My belly has been extra angry lately, though I didn't get sick yesterday which is a good sign (I hope.) In other news, I'm addicted to Downton Abbey, though I'm having a hard time getting Season 2 on my computer. I watched the first season through Netflix, but they don't have season 2 for whatever sad reason. I am not a tv person, but it is a fun show...hoping to find another viewing method that doesn't cost $$.
I am also thinking a lot about grad schools, fellowships, and where this job in Idaho may lead. I hope something pans out! Many big ideas swirling in my brain! I think I have my living situation figured out (nanny gig in trade for free housing in a little cottage on an Elk Refuge)...now to try to get a job at the resort....
Wouldn't you know I have a fuel leak. I'm currently getting it fixed and hoping they'll be done by 11:00 so I can head out after my check-out time is up. For now I'm camping out at the Best Western and biding my time.
Yesterday I stayed in Denver. I had a virtual interview with Citizen Schools. I also threw together a letter of intent for TFA just for kicks. It was storming outside and the roads were bad, so I didn't really venture too far. I did discover a delicious butternut squash soufflé I could actually eat. City grocery stores are the best. Whole Foods is by far my favorite, but I didn't make it there yesterday. I'm hoping they have a good organic section in Jackson. We do back in Blue Hill, and that's population 3000 or something, so....why not Wyoming? Gluten free, dairy free, sugar-free lovin!
Oh, and peanut-free. Don't like hives. Nasty business.
My belly has been extra angry lately, though I didn't get sick yesterday which is a good sign (I hope.) In other news, I'm addicted to Downton Abbey, though I'm having a hard time getting Season 2 on my computer. I watched the first season through Netflix, but they don't have season 2 for whatever sad reason. I am not a tv person, but it is a fun show...hoping to find another viewing method that doesn't cost $$.
I am also thinking a lot about grad schools, fellowships, and where this job in Idaho may lead. I hope something pans out! Many big ideas swirling in my brain! I think I have my living situation figured out (nanny gig in trade for free housing in a little cottage on an Elk Refuge)...now to try to get a job at the resort....
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
January 9, Road Trip
So! Updates about my life:
1. I am moving to Jackson, Wyoming! Exciting!
Okay...some of you may ask: Why? Well, there are a number of reasons. First, I have always wanted to be a ski-bumb. PLUS I really want to experience the West. Second, I actually got a pretty sweet part-time teaching job out in Victor, ID, which is right next-door. I will be working as an after school counselor, pre-school teacher, and intern. This may turn into a full-time teaching gig next year, too! Third, I want to see where things go with Sam. Fourth, I want to get out of my parents house and go see a new place in the world! I'm 23 and it's time to be out of the nest!
2. I bought myself a Subaru Outback. It has some problems (it's a 2001), but it's a good little car. I'm excited.
3. I interviewed for a teaching fellowship in NYC, and also had a phone interview for a co-teacher program in Philadelphia. We'll see how both go! I have my final interview with Citizen Schools (AmeriCorps program) on the 11th.
4. I am currently road tripping across country! After spending time with some old college friends in NY, I got to see my cousins in CT. I also briefly saw Brittany (in Ohio) and Ethan (in Missouri), both former members of PC-Tanzania who left early like me.
Anyway, I am experiencing the mid-west for the first time outside of my visit from Chicago!
My route:
Limerick, ME --> Enfield, CT --> Columbus, OH --> St. Louis, MO --> Denver, CO --> Jackson, WY
Miles: 193 miles + 696 miles + 414 miles + 850 miles + 529 miles = 2, 682 Miles
1. I am moving to Jackson, Wyoming! Exciting!
Okay...some of you may ask: Why? Well, there are a number of reasons. First, I have always wanted to be a ski-bumb. PLUS I really want to experience the West. Second, I actually got a pretty sweet part-time teaching job out in Victor, ID, which is right next-door. I will be working as an after school counselor, pre-school teacher, and intern. This may turn into a full-time teaching gig next year, too! Third, I want to see where things go with Sam. Fourth, I want to get out of my parents house and go see a new place in the world! I'm 23 and it's time to be out of the nest!
2. I bought myself a Subaru Outback. It has some problems (it's a 2001), but it's a good little car. I'm excited.
3. I interviewed for a teaching fellowship in NYC, and also had a phone interview for a co-teacher program in Philadelphia. We'll see how both go! I have my final interview with Citizen Schools (AmeriCorps program) on the 11th.
4. I am currently road tripping across country! After spending time with some old college friends in NY, I got to see my cousins in CT. I also briefly saw Brittany (in Ohio) and Ethan (in Missouri), both former members of PC-Tanzania who left early like me.
Anyway, I am experiencing the mid-west for the first time outside of my visit from Chicago!
My route:
Limerick, ME --> Enfield, CT --> Columbus, OH --> St. Louis, MO --> Denver, CO --> Jackson, WY
Miles: 193 miles + 696 miles + 414 miles + 850 miles + 529 miles = 2, 682 Miles
Saturday, December 29, 2012
December 29, All Mixed Up
So, I am currently contemplating my next big move. This is difficult because I do need to take my health into consideration, but at this point, I don't like the idea of my stomach running my life, and I can't afford too many doctor bills. I wish the process to get health coverage through FECA was simpler/more guaranteed. For now, I have a limited supply of funding (incidentally the silver-lining of being run over in 2011...basically I'm living off of my insurance settlement money) and a lot of big ideas.
In-person interviews are expensive, as are cars, which makes getting a fellowship a costly venture. I'm hoping to get a fellowship that would start in June or July, but I won't necessarily have an answer to whether or not that's going to happen for quite some time. So--do I wait around in Blue Hill? Do I go to a city? I'd really like to go out West and hit up Wyoming, but that decision may or may not be a good one. It's hard to know. I feel so excited about the idea, but also a bit worried about the practicality of it.
Anyway, I'm feeling very conflicted on a number of levels about where to go and what to do. Fun vs. Practicality. Normally I'm very logical, rational, and practical. BUT--I kind of want to go do something risky, fun, and out of my norm.
Regardless, my head is swimming.
In-person interviews are expensive, as are cars, which makes getting a fellowship a costly venture. I'm hoping to get a fellowship that would start in June or July, but I won't necessarily have an answer to whether or not that's going to happen for quite some time. So--do I wait around in Blue Hill? Do I go to a city? I'd really like to go out West and hit up Wyoming, but that decision may or may not be a good one. It's hard to know. I feel so excited about the idea, but also a bit worried about the practicality of it.
Anyway, I'm feeling very conflicted on a number of levels about where to go and what to do. Fun vs. Practicality. Normally I'm very logical, rational, and practical. BUT--I kind of want to go do something risky, fun, and out of my norm.
Regardless, my head is swimming.
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
December 25, Merry Christmas!
Today is Christmas, so I'm happy to be home and spending it with family!
Lately the readjustment process has been... interesting. I am able to eat and drink much more now, though I still have a ways to go. Step-by-step! I'm also feeling a bit burnt out by the applications I've been working on. I think I'm going to switch strategies and take more breaks, focus on one organization and application at a time, and submit things at some of the later deadlines rather than trying to rush and finish all these applications by January. Coming back from Peace Corps, looking for work, trying to figure out what I really WANT to do, worrying about what organizations I'll be accepted by, and sorting out my health/life has been a bit overwhelming mentally. So, I'm going to try and relax a bit more. I may go out West (in the process of looking for a car) and do something fun and emotionally rewarding. I'm 23, and I'd like to explore the US a little while I'm living no-strings-attached.
Lately the readjustment process has been... interesting. I am able to eat and drink much more now, though I still have a ways to go. Step-by-step! I'm also feeling a bit burnt out by the applications I've been working on. I think I'm going to switch strategies and take more breaks, focus on one organization and application at a time, and submit things at some of the later deadlines rather than trying to rush and finish all these applications by January. Coming back from Peace Corps, looking for work, trying to figure out what I really WANT to do, worrying about what organizations I'll be accepted by, and sorting out my health/life has been a bit overwhelming mentally. So, I'm going to try and relax a bit more. I may go out West (in the process of looking for a car) and do something fun and emotionally rewarding. I'm 23, and I'd like to explore the US a little while I'm living no-strings-attached.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
December 18, On the Bus Home
So, we have finally arrived in Portland. I just watched part of the Tin-Tin movie, and did some face booking. I have a hard time reading/writing on buses, which is why I'm jotting this quick blog post down while we're at the Portland bus terminal. (Car sickness rears its ugly head if I try to be productive while going down the road.)
The bus is packed, which surprises me. It's a pretty gloomy Tuesday, but I guess that it's good that it's not snowing since it'd make traveling much slower. For now, lot's of rain. It's been like that for several days in Chicago as well.
Anyway, my interview in Chicago didn't go as well as I'd hoped. It was probably the most standardized interview/impersonal interview I've ever had. Lot's of applicants for very few spots, and they try to make it a uniform experience, so everything is scripted, timed, and very to-the-point. I'll find out by the 4th of January if I got a fellowship position, but I'm not holding my breath. I did really enjoy seeing the city, though! Chicago is awesome. I really enjoyed the Evolution, Maharaja, and Jade exhibits at the Field Museum. The Art Institute was way too big for my brain--I got overwhelmed pretty quickly by the number of exhibits. I did quite enjoy the photo exhibit, however. I love pictures. I love taking them. I love looking at them. I love learning about them. I'd like to take a course in photography sometime soon.
While in Chicago it was great to see my friend Edo. She was also in town for an interview, so we spent a couple hours together at the Skydeck (formerly Sears Tower--now Willis Tower). Great view of the city! I also saw Edo and Naomi again once I came back to Boston. We watched Pitch Perfect (A CAPPELLA DORKS!) and caught up, which was nice. :) We all used to sing together back in the day.
I'm seeing the Hobbit tonight. Then more application supplements tomorrow! I have a packet to complete for my Citizen Schools application--I'd be pumped if they gave me an offer to work in Boston, but we'll see. Financially it's the least rewarding, but the program looks AWESOME. I am not very money-driven, mostly just passionate about things that sound emotionally fulfilling. I'm not sure if that's ideal, but I'll probably find out the hard way someday if not.
Health has bobbed around this week. I'm doing better than before, but still not out of the woods. Patience is a virtue! Christmas is fast approaching, so my task of the week is to send out my Christmas cards and to bake some goodies for my friends. I LOVE baking--I really want to take holistic nutrition courses and learn to be an allergy-friendly food guru. I'm thinking Santa Brownies and Pumpkin Cupcakes with Maple Cream cheese Frosting--decorated to either be snowmen or wreaths--still deciding... If I was rich, I'd bake for people more often!
The bus is packed, which surprises me. It's a pretty gloomy Tuesday, but I guess that it's good that it's not snowing since it'd make traveling much slower. For now, lot's of rain. It's been like that for several days in Chicago as well.
Anyway, my interview in Chicago didn't go as well as I'd hoped. It was probably the most standardized interview/impersonal interview I've ever had. Lot's of applicants for very few spots, and they try to make it a uniform experience, so everything is scripted, timed, and very to-the-point. I'll find out by the 4th of January if I got a fellowship position, but I'm not holding my breath. I did really enjoy seeing the city, though! Chicago is awesome. I really enjoyed the Evolution, Maharaja, and Jade exhibits at the Field Museum. The Art Institute was way too big for my brain--I got overwhelmed pretty quickly by the number of exhibits. I did quite enjoy the photo exhibit, however. I love pictures. I love taking them. I love looking at them. I love learning about them. I'd like to take a course in photography sometime soon.
While in Chicago it was great to see my friend Edo. She was also in town for an interview, so we spent a couple hours together at the Skydeck (formerly Sears Tower--now Willis Tower). Great view of the city! I also saw Edo and Naomi again once I came back to Boston. We watched Pitch Perfect (A CAPPELLA DORKS!) and caught up, which was nice. :) We all used to sing together back in the day.
I'm seeing the Hobbit tonight. Then more application supplements tomorrow! I have a packet to complete for my Citizen Schools application--I'd be pumped if they gave me an offer to work in Boston, but we'll see. Financially it's the least rewarding, but the program looks AWESOME. I am not very money-driven, mostly just passionate about things that sound emotionally fulfilling. I'm not sure if that's ideal, but I'll probably find out the hard way someday if not.
Health has bobbed around this week. I'm doing better than before, but still not out of the woods. Patience is a virtue! Christmas is fast approaching, so my task of the week is to send out my Christmas cards and to bake some goodies for my friends. I LOVE baking--I really want to take holistic nutrition courses and learn to be an allergy-friendly food guru. I'm thinking Santa Brownies and Pumpkin Cupcakes with Maple Cream cheese Frosting--decorated to either be snowmen or wreaths--still deciding... If I was rich, I'd bake for people more often!
Thursday, December 13, 2012
December 13, Chicago is AWESOME!
Health is better in some ways, worse in others. If you're interested in more details, contact me privately, since I feel weird explaining my health in detail on a public blog.
What I feel less weird about is sharing my adventures! Yesterday I went down to Boston and met up with Sofie and Caitlin. (All the fancy American technology/nice buses/public transportation marvels are still boggling my mind a little bit. I never appreciate Conchord Trailways until I went to TZ!) Sofie & I went to get coffee/tea at this cute little place in the North End, which is where Caitlin lives. We had an interesting encounter with three middle-aged men that was funny but very weird. They came in, sat at the table next to us, and one of them promptly asked me point-blank, "What are you talking about?" They introduced themselves and made some small talk, which was a bit odd but nothing weird enough for me to remember. Anyway, one of them ended up offering me $100 to slap his friend in the face. He told me I needed to slap him as hard as possible--so hard spit would come flying out of his mouth. And he wanted to video tape me doing it so they could circulate the video to all of their office cronies. As the guy predicted, I didn't have it in me to just slap a random man in the face, though $100 was hard to pass up. I just really didn't' need an assault charge being levied on me. Plus, I doubt I could really hit someone that hard in the face for no good reason. My morals just don't jibe that way.
Anyway, today I flew into Chicago. I really like it here--I definitely would gladly relocate to the windy city based on what I've seen so far! It's exciting!
Interesting observations & nice things from my day:
1. I saw the most adorable father in the airport. He was like the poster-child of fathers. (Oxymoron? Poster-father?) Anyway, watching him play this crocodile game with his toddler kind of made my morning. Normally I'm annoyed by the poor parenting I see in public transportation situations, so I was pleasantly surprised that he wasn't letting his child run screaming and flailing around the terminal. Also, unlike another family there, he didn't let the little guy tote my winter boots around as I was getting my jacket off for the security check. Apparently this kid really "liked them".
2. The buildings in Chicago are tall, pretty, and super shiny. I feel pumped up just from being here! I love city life, it's just so invigorating. And this city seems very handsome, at least in the downtown area.
3. I really like the old-school feel here--there's a nice vibe in Chicago. Old meets new. Classic and cultured meets modernity. I like the feeling I get here, and I'm excited to tourist around tomorrow.
4. I had some delicious spicy sweet potatoes from Whole Foods. I'm definitely making those once I get home!
5. Most people in Chicago that I've walked past have been very fit. I'm not sure if that's true city-wide, but I was impressed by how many people were in shape as I wandered around this afternoon.
6. Okay, back to Whole Foods. There is an amazing selection of new, yummy, allergy-friendly foods that I could normally have, but can't at the present time. Once I'm off my restrictive diet, I'm excited to try these new items! I LOVE YOU ALLERGY FRIENDLY GRANOLA BARS!
7. I got an interview with the DC Fellows program, too! So far I've gotten final interviews for every position I've applied for! (Saturday is my attempt at nailing down an offer!) The position in DC is for ESL, which is perfect. :) I hope I get one position at least!
8. I had 3 cups of peppermint tea today. It was great.
9. I came up with some really inspired thoughts for the children's book I want to write--these ideas are semi-related to my Plan B: Allergy-Friendly Bakery & Nutritional Consultant Studio idea, incidentally...
10. The O'Hare airport features toilets that have automatic re-changing seat covers. You just wave at the toilet, and it spins on some new plastic for your tush. Wonders never cease.
What I feel less weird about is sharing my adventures! Yesterday I went down to Boston and met up with Sofie and Caitlin. (All the fancy American technology/nice buses/public transportation marvels are still boggling my mind a little bit. I never appreciate Conchord Trailways until I went to TZ!) Sofie & I went to get coffee/tea at this cute little place in the North End, which is where Caitlin lives. We had an interesting encounter with three middle-aged men that was funny but very weird. They came in, sat at the table next to us, and one of them promptly asked me point-blank, "What are you talking about?" They introduced themselves and made some small talk, which was a bit odd but nothing weird enough for me to remember. Anyway, one of them ended up offering me $100 to slap his friend in the face. He told me I needed to slap him as hard as possible--so hard spit would come flying out of his mouth. And he wanted to video tape me doing it so they could circulate the video to all of their office cronies. As the guy predicted, I didn't have it in me to just slap a random man in the face, though $100 was hard to pass up. I just really didn't' need an assault charge being levied on me. Plus, I doubt I could really hit someone that hard in the face for no good reason. My morals just don't jibe that way.
Anyway, today I flew into Chicago. I really like it here--I definitely would gladly relocate to the windy city based on what I've seen so far! It's exciting!
Interesting observations & nice things from my day:
1. I saw the most adorable father in the airport. He was like the poster-child of fathers. (Oxymoron? Poster-father?) Anyway, watching him play this crocodile game with his toddler kind of made my morning. Normally I'm annoyed by the poor parenting I see in public transportation situations, so I was pleasantly surprised that he wasn't letting his child run screaming and flailing around the terminal. Also, unlike another family there, he didn't let the little guy tote my winter boots around as I was getting my jacket off for the security check. Apparently this kid really "liked them".
2. The buildings in Chicago are tall, pretty, and super shiny. I feel pumped up just from being here! I love city life, it's just so invigorating. And this city seems very handsome, at least in the downtown area.
3. I really like the old-school feel here--there's a nice vibe in Chicago. Old meets new. Classic and cultured meets modernity. I like the feeling I get here, and I'm excited to tourist around tomorrow.
4. I had some delicious spicy sweet potatoes from Whole Foods. I'm definitely making those once I get home!
5. Most people in Chicago that I've walked past have been very fit. I'm not sure if that's true city-wide, but I was impressed by how many people were in shape as I wandered around this afternoon.
6. Okay, back to Whole Foods. There is an amazing selection of new, yummy, allergy-friendly foods that I could normally have, but can't at the present time. Once I'm off my restrictive diet, I'm excited to try these new items! I LOVE YOU ALLERGY FRIENDLY GRANOLA BARS!
7. I got an interview with the DC Fellows program, too! So far I've gotten final interviews for every position I've applied for! (Saturday is my attempt at nailing down an offer!) The position in DC is for ESL, which is perfect. :) I hope I get one position at least!
8. I had 3 cups of peppermint tea today. It was great.
9. I came up with some really inspired thoughts for the children's book I want to write--these ideas are semi-related to my Plan B: Allergy-Friendly Bakery & Nutritional Consultant Studio idea, incidentally...
10. The O'Hare airport features toilets that have automatic re-changing seat covers. You just wave at the toilet, and it spins on some new plastic for your tush. Wonders never cease.
Thursday, December 6, 2012
December 6, Interview Excitement
So far I've gotten an interview invite from every position I've applied to. I am really excited by that, and hoping it's a good sign, but I'm also pretty anxious about landing a position. It'd be easier to relax if I didn't feel really dedicated to getting the fellowships I've applied to, but I'm genuinely going to be pretty sad if I don't get a position with any of them. Two of the interviews are via phone; if I do well I should be invited to an in-person interview for those as well. The one for NYC Teaching Fellows is in-person, however, so that will require travel sometime soon--probably around New Years or sometime in January if I wait to fly down. I'm excited to hit up the big apple!
I'm going to help children make Christmas lanterns today, which should be fun. I'm excited to feel productive--I hate being unemployed, though I really should just be enjoying the relaxation time.
I'm going down to Boston on the 12th, flying to Chicago on the 13th, and coming back to Maine on the 18th. I'm excited to see the city as it will be my first time in the great state of Illinois :)
I'm going to help children make Christmas lanterns today, which should be fun. I'm excited to feel productive--I hate being unemployed, though I really should just be enjoying the relaxation time.
I'm going down to Boston on the 12th, flying to Chicago on the 13th, and coming back to Maine on the 18th. I'm excited to see the city as it will be my first time in the great state of Illinois :)
Monday, December 3, 2012
December 3, INTERVIEWS!
Yahoo! I got an interview for both of my top-choice cities at TNTP! I really hope I manage to get hired by one of the two: DC or Chicago. And if not, I hope I'm contacted by other cities for an interview. I'm nervous! I really, really want to get a teaching fellowship...I'm incredibly excited about the idea of working in high-need schools here in America, but I'm worried I won't get the chance. We'll see I guess! I'm flying out to Chicago on the 13th and going to have an interview there. I'm not sure if I'll land the job, but I'm excited to see the city either way :)
Today I went to the chiropractor's office to get another Nutri-Spect examination. They switched my supplements all around and I'm going in for more adjustments soon. I also got news back from the hospital--apparently I have a non-pathogenic parasite living in my body, but it's not causing any problems by being there. Interesting...and semi-useless information, but I'll get more blood work done tomorrow to scope out if anything else is hiding in my body! I'm staying positive and hoping things will all end up working out very shortly!
Today I went to the chiropractor's office to get another Nutri-Spect examination. They switched my supplements all around and I'm going in for more adjustments soon. I also got news back from the hospital--apparently I have a non-pathogenic parasite living in my body, but it's not causing any problems by being there. Interesting...and semi-useless information, but I'll get more blood work done tomorrow to scope out if anything else is hiding in my body! I'm staying positive and hoping things will all end up working out very shortly!
Sunday, December 2, 2012
December 2, Applications & Kale Chips
The past several days have been good socially. I've seen some good friends, had some good herbal tea out at the restaurants/bars in Blue Hill, and watched a couple movies. I also stopped in to see my work crewbies from New Beginnings--it's always nice to chat, though it did make me a bit nostalgic for doing pre-school craft projects. The readjustment process has been pretty hard, but I'm working through things.
I have been primarily working on Fellowship applications, a process that I find stressful mostly because I REALLY want to land an opportunity like the ones provided through TNTP and AmeriCorps. Several applications are due* tomorrow, so I've been dedicating my time to finishing them. I'm also planning on submitting a TFA application, and I've been working on my Center for Inspired Teaching essay questions, but I think I'll take a break from applications this coming week since the deadlines aren't until January. I also need to prepare for my TNTP phone interview--really hoping it goes well, but we'll see!
Last night I made dinner with Peter, and then we cooked up some kale chips as snacks. They were DELICIOUS! I'm not allowed to have popcorn, so it was the perfect alternative treat. Salty, crunchy, and just plain yummy! Nonetheless, so far I'm a little disappointed with the cookbooks I bought--I think I will write my own one day and improve the options out there in allergy-friendly eating!
*early application deadline
I have been primarily working on Fellowship applications, a process that I find stressful mostly because I REALLY want to land an opportunity like the ones provided through TNTP and AmeriCorps. Several applications are due* tomorrow, so I've been dedicating my time to finishing them. I'm also planning on submitting a TFA application, and I've been working on my Center for Inspired Teaching essay questions, but I think I'll take a break from applications this coming week since the deadlines aren't until January. I also need to prepare for my TNTP phone interview--really hoping it goes well, but we'll see!
Last night I made dinner with Peter, and then we cooked up some kale chips as snacks. They were DELICIOUS! I'm not allowed to have popcorn, so it was the perfect alternative treat. Salty, crunchy, and just plain yummy! Nonetheless, so far I'm a little disappointed with the cookbooks I bought--I think I will write my own one day and improve the options out there in allergy-friendly eating!
*early application deadline
Thursday, November 29, 2012
November 29, Blood Work is A-Okay
Yesterday I submitted my TNTP Fellowship application! It felt really good to complete it and send it off--I really hope I land a position! It's a very exciting opportunity. Plus, I REALLY want to help underprivileged kids back here in America. I'm feeling passionate, which I hope comes through my short-answer responses.
Last night I went out to Ipanemas with a crew of my friends. It's known as the "Jingo" club, based on some sort of made-up acronym that a bunch of my friends came up with one night. I got to see some friends I haven't been able to run into yet, so even though it wiped me out, it was really nice to see people! I did go a little crazy when we stopped at BAM! to go shopping. I love bookstores, and I found some exciting things, particularly in the cooking section. I have big aspirations to make my new way of eating more exciting!
This morning Baroody called and told me that my blood-work came back normal. The rest of the results will be in sometime next week. He also said he sent my information to the Portland Gastroenterology Department, so hopefully I can get an appointment soon!
Last night I went out to Ipanemas with a crew of my friends. It's known as the "Jingo" club, based on some sort of made-up acronym that a bunch of my friends came up with one night. I got to see some friends I haven't been able to run into yet, so even though it wiped me out, it was really nice to see people! I did go a little crazy when we stopped at BAM! to go shopping. I love bookstores, and I found some exciting things, particularly in the cooking section. I have big aspirations to make my new way of eating more exciting!
This morning Baroody called and told me that my blood-work came back normal. The rest of the results will be in sometime next week. He also said he sent my information to the Portland Gastroenterology Department, so hopefully I can get an appointment soon!
Monday, November 26, 2012
November 26, I Love Veggie Stir-Fry
Yesterday I went on a walk with Peter and my doggie, Baci, down in Deer Isle. It was cold but beautiful!
Today I went to the doctor's office and saw my family doctor, Dr. Baroody. He asked me for a run-down of what's been happening, prodded my stomach, and ordered some tests to be run. Getting my blood drawn was a ridiculous 15-minute ordeal, involving multiple pricks and two phlebotomists. Baroody said that he'd refer me to a gastroenterologist, though he warned that it will probably take months to see anyone. For now, hopefully they can help me at Dr. Aker's office and Blue Hill Memorial Hospital. I want to be healthy!
I also continued working on applications today and had some delicious stir-fry for dinner. It may not have been a large amount, but it was totally delicious!
Today I went to the doctor's office and saw my family doctor, Dr. Baroody. He asked me for a run-down of what's been happening, prodded my stomach, and ordered some tests to be run. Getting my blood drawn was a ridiculous 15-minute ordeal, involving multiple pricks and two phlebotomists. Baroody said that he'd refer me to a gastroenterologist, though he warned that it will probably take months to see anyone. For now, hopefully they can help me at Dr. Aker's office and Blue Hill Memorial Hospital. I want to be healthy!
I also continued working on applications today and had some delicious stir-fry for dinner. It may not have been a large amount, but it was totally delicious!
Saturday, November 24, 2012
November 24, Small Business Saturday
For the first time since I got home, I actually slept for a reasonable, solid amount of time. Eight hours of glorious snooze-time. It was great.
I've been working on a couple applications. I've found two fellowships that I'm SUPER excited about! I really want to continue teaching here in America and actually make a difference at home. My current career path is (loosely) as follows:
(1) Teach while I'm in my 20's. I love working with children, plus I want to get a good sense of the American education system and really make a difference in lives of students in urban districts.
(2) In my mid to late 20's, receive my masters degree in Education Policy, and potentially also Law if it feels like the right decision for me.
(3) Work with the government or with non-profits to promote education reform/better education practices in schools.
Obviously life has many detours, so I'm also open to working for other types of non-profits, and part of me would just love to open up an alternative-foods bakery for people with allergies like me. But...we will see! I'm 23, driven, and once I'm healthy I shall be unstoppable :) That's the dream anyway.
Yesterday I had a small gathering at my house to celebrate my birthday/being home. It was really nice to see people, especially since some old friends stopped by. It was kind of a surprisingly small turn-out, though. Given that I can't really party these days, I didn't mind how low-key it was.
Today I'm going to Bangor to check-out Small Business Saturday. I'm hoping to get some good deals and maybe find a couple cute, warm sweaters. Hopefully my body holds up! The past couple days haven't been ideal, but I'm hoping the full night of sleep I got will do the trick for me today! :)
I've been working on a couple applications. I've found two fellowships that I'm SUPER excited about! I really want to continue teaching here in America and actually make a difference at home. My current career path is (loosely) as follows:
(1) Teach while I'm in my 20's. I love working with children, plus I want to get a good sense of the American education system and really make a difference in lives of students in urban districts.
(2) In my mid to late 20's, receive my masters degree in Education Policy, and potentially also Law if it feels like the right decision for me.
(3) Work with the government or with non-profits to promote education reform/better education practices in schools.
Obviously life has many detours, so I'm also open to working for other types of non-profits, and part of me would just love to open up an alternative-foods bakery for people with allergies like me. But...we will see! I'm 23, driven, and once I'm healthy I shall be unstoppable :) That's the dream anyway.
Yesterday I had a small gathering at my house to celebrate my birthday/being home. It was really nice to see people, especially since some old friends stopped by. It was kind of a surprisingly small turn-out, though. Given that I can't really party these days, I didn't mind how low-key it was.
Today I'm going to Bangor to check-out Small Business Saturday. I'm hoping to get some good deals and maybe find a couple cute, warm sweaters. Hopefully my body holds up! The past couple days haven't been ideal, but I'm hoping the full night of sleep I got will do the trick for me today! :)
Thursday, November 22, 2012
November 22, I'm Now 23 Years-Old
So, yesterday was my 23rd birthday. (I'm going to miss being 22, but I'm still pretty young.) It was probably one of the most low-key birthdays I've ever had. My mom hurt her back, so we cancelled our family luncheon. I was feeling particularly sick to my stomach, so I also wasn't overly high-energy. Last night I did go out with some friends to Bangor, a city that's pretty close to my hometown. I drank some herbal tea and water, they drank beers and got some food. It wasn't a very crazy outing, but it certainly was good to see people! (And it was right on my energy-level.)
Anyway, on Monday I took what is called a "Nutri-Spec" exam. I got the results yesterday, which showed that I have two imbalances: Anaerobic and Ketogenic. An anaerobic imbalance means that my body doesn't efficiently use oxygen to produce energy. It also means that there's an inefficient movement of nutrients into, and waste products out of, my cells. This causes things like fatigue, allergic sensitivities, dizziness etc. A ketogenic imbalance means that I have poor glycemic control, leading to difficulty handling sugary and fatty foods.
I received a large number of different supplements to take, in addition to a diet plan to follow. I've pretty much already been on the diet they prescribed for the past 8 weeks, but the supplements are new. I'm hoping the supplements make a difference, but I'm also happy to be seeing a gastroenterologist soon*. On Monday I'll also be seeing my family doctor at the hospital here in Blue Hill, and I'm really hoping that he'll refer me to a good gastroenterologist who can figure out if I have any sort of underlying condition that hasn't been previously identified.
Anyway, as you all probably know, today is Thanksgiving! I'm a little sad I can't enjoy things like cranberry sauce and pumpkin pie, but I am excited about the vegetables and turkey. I had some mashed pumpkin for breakfast. Plus, it's just nice to spend time with my family in my beautiful home!
10 Things I'm Thankful For:
1. My family: My mother is one of my best friends, and is always there to support me. She is one of the most creative, hard-working people I know. My father has also always been there for me and loves me through thick and thin. He is intelligent, resilient, and giving. I am very grateful for their support, love, and their belief in my ability to do great things one day.
2. My dog: He is too cute. And loving. And smart.
3. My friends: Near or far, I have some great friends. They make me laugh, and they are there for me when I need to cry. We have some great adventures together, and I'm thankful for the crazy, boring, and fun times we share.
4. My education: I had mixed feelings about Smith, but I am SO thankful for the education that I received there. I'm also happy to still have good relationships with my professors, who were always amazing and inspiring educators.
5. Communication: Call it good or bad, but I love being able to reach people via phone, Facebook, e-mail, snail mail, personal visit etc. I am thankful for the ability to communicate across borders, oceans, and time-zones. I admit it, technology rocks my socks. I didn't mind being without electricity or running water, but having a cell-phone in Tanzania really did make a difference on those days I just really needed to talk to somebody.
6. Soft things: I love comfortable sweaters, fleecy blankets, cushy socks, and warm PJs. I am thankful to be wrapped in a pretty fleece blanket right now, and I will always love the feeling that soft things provide.
7. The health that I do have: I may not be well, but I'm also not laying in a hospital bed. I'm happy to have medical support and to be able to eat and drink at least some of the items on our Thanksgiving docket. More importantly, I'm glad that I can walk, talk, and use my right arm for pretty much whatever I need to do! (I got run-over in August 2011, but my arm has made a pretty strong recovery!)
8. My Italian host family: My Italian host family, the Verdes, will always be my second family. I am thankful to feel like I will always have a place to go in Livorno and in Milan. I miss and love them.
9. Music: Through good times and bad, music ALWAYS makes everything better. I am thankful for the joy that songs bring me, whether I'm listening to them, singing them, or playing them on my guitar.
10. Possibilities: Life is a strange journey, and there are plenty of problems in the world, but there are also a lot of opportunities. I am thankful for the freedom and rights I enjoy as an American, and for the myriad possibilities out there I have yet to discover.
Anyway, on Monday I took what is called a "Nutri-Spec" exam. I got the results yesterday, which showed that I have two imbalances: Anaerobic and Ketogenic. An anaerobic imbalance means that my body doesn't efficiently use oxygen to produce energy. It also means that there's an inefficient movement of nutrients into, and waste products out of, my cells. This causes things like fatigue, allergic sensitivities, dizziness etc. A ketogenic imbalance means that I have poor glycemic control, leading to difficulty handling sugary and fatty foods.
I received a large number of different supplements to take, in addition to a diet plan to follow. I've pretty much already been on the diet they prescribed for the past 8 weeks, but the supplements are new. I'm hoping the supplements make a difference, but I'm also happy to be seeing a gastroenterologist soon*. On Monday I'll also be seeing my family doctor at the hospital here in Blue Hill, and I'm really hoping that he'll refer me to a good gastroenterologist who can figure out if I have any sort of underlying condition that hasn't been previously identified.
Anyway, as you all probably know, today is Thanksgiving! I'm a little sad I can't enjoy things like cranberry sauce and pumpkin pie, but I am excited about the vegetables and turkey. I had some mashed pumpkin for breakfast. Plus, it's just nice to spend time with my family in my beautiful home!
10 Things I'm Thankful For:
1. My family: My mother is one of my best friends, and is always there to support me. She is one of the most creative, hard-working people I know. My father has also always been there for me and loves me through thick and thin. He is intelligent, resilient, and giving. I am very grateful for their support, love, and their belief in my ability to do great things one day.
2. My dog: He is too cute. And loving. And smart.
3. My friends: Near or far, I have some great friends. They make me laugh, and they are there for me when I need to cry. We have some great adventures together, and I'm thankful for the crazy, boring, and fun times we share.
4. My education: I had mixed feelings about Smith, but I am SO thankful for the education that I received there. I'm also happy to still have good relationships with my professors, who were always amazing and inspiring educators.
5. Communication: Call it good or bad, but I love being able to reach people via phone, Facebook, e-mail, snail mail, personal visit etc. I am thankful for the ability to communicate across borders, oceans, and time-zones. I admit it, technology rocks my socks. I didn't mind being without electricity or running water, but having a cell-phone in Tanzania really did make a difference on those days I just really needed to talk to somebody.
6. Soft things: I love comfortable sweaters, fleecy blankets, cushy socks, and warm PJs. I am thankful to be wrapped in a pretty fleece blanket right now, and I will always love the feeling that soft things provide.
7. The health that I do have: I may not be well, but I'm also not laying in a hospital bed. I'm happy to have medical support and to be able to eat and drink at least some of the items on our Thanksgiving docket. More importantly, I'm glad that I can walk, talk, and use my right arm for pretty much whatever I need to do! (I got run-over in August 2011, but my arm has made a pretty strong recovery!)
8. My Italian host family: My Italian host family, the Verdes, will always be my second family. I am thankful to feel like I will always have a place to go in Livorno and in Milan. I miss and love them.
9. Music: Through good times and bad, music ALWAYS makes everything better. I am thankful for the joy that songs bring me, whether I'm listening to them, singing them, or playing them on my guitar.
10. Possibilities: Life is a strange journey, and there are plenty of problems in the world, but there are also a lot of opportunities. I am thankful for the freedom and rights I enjoy as an American, and for the myriad possibilities out there I have yet to discover.
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
November 20, Resume Headache
Yesterday was a pretty good day. I caught up with a couple more friends and went on a short walk in the woods. I'm trying to push myself to get a little physical activity, even though I really haven't noticed much of a change in my health status. I miss running, dancing, and hiking!
I am in the process of finding job/fellowship opportunities. I'm hoping to start working again in the end of January. Today I started an application for a pretty exciting teaching fellowship program that would enable me to work in a needy school here in America. It's just difficult to really get everything together right now, but deadlines are approaching for things that won't start until June! I'm hoping that I can write some really good essay responses to the application questions and streamline my resume within the next couple of weeks. I'm also hoping that employers will be understanding about my medical separation from the Peace Corps. I truly fought to stay at my site and in the PC, and I will eventually be plenty capable of working full-time, but it's a bit strange to be working on applications when I'm not really ready to re-join the workforce yet.
Tonight I am going over to have dinner at Kate's house. I think we're going to have some stir-fried vegetables. Being home and out of the hot weather has been helping me stay more hydrated and has increased my appetite a bit, though other symptoms are still persisting or worsening. I am still waiting to hear back from Dr. Aker's office about the tests I had run yesterday. I did urinalysis, blood pressure tests (sitting vs. standing), a spit ph, etc. I also submitted a symptoms list and had my pupils examined. I hope they find a way of fixing me quickly! I want to have a miraculous Christmas recovery :)
I am in the process of finding job/fellowship opportunities. I'm hoping to start working again in the end of January. Today I started an application for a pretty exciting teaching fellowship program that would enable me to work in a needy school here in America. It's just difficult to really get everything together right now, but deadlines are approaching for things that won't start until June! I'm hoping that I can write some really good essay responses to the application questions and streamline my resume within the next couple of weeks. I'm also hoping that employers will be understanding about my medical separation from the Peace Corps. I truly fought to stay at my site and in the PC, and I will eventually be plenty capable of working full-time, but it's a bit strange to be working on applications when I'm not really ready to re-join the workforce yet.
Tonight I am going over to have dinner at Kate's house. I think we're going to have some stir-fried vegetables. Being home and out of the hot weather has been helping me stay more hydrated and has increased my appetite a bit, though other symptoms are still persisting or worsening. I am still waiting to hear back from Dr. Aker's office about the tests I had run yesterday. I did urinalysis, blood pressure tests (sitting vs. standing), a spit ph, etc. I also submitted a symptoms list and had my pupils examined. I hope they find a way of fixing me quickly! I want to have a miraculous Christmas recovery :)
Sunday, November 18, 2012
November 18, Cold & Colds
Today has been a semi-productive day so far. My mom helped me go through my old clothes to sort what items are being (1) given away, (2) put in storage, or (3) kept in my room. I haven't had a ton of energy today (once again I failed to sleep for very long), but I do need to finish putting away the big pile of clothing now laying on my bed.
Unfortunately, I think that I'm coming down with a cold--I'm feeling particularly ill today, but in a different way than usual. I'm guessing that going on a plane with a low white blood cell count made me pretty susceptible to catching whatever colds are circulating these days, so it's not overly surprising to me.
I still haven't gotten used to the cold weather here. It's so crazy how much of a bite there is in the air! I got pretty adjusted to the heat and humidity in Dar. I am getting more adjusted to other things, although things like American currency and tea kettles are still 'noticeable' to me. It's hard to explain--I haven't been gone long enough for things to seem overly strange, but I do seem to notice certain things that I think I'd normally take for granted. I actually pay attention to quarters when I see them, using a washing machine is still extremely exciting, and it's also really neat that I don't have to do very much to get a glass of clean drinking water.
Also, Words With Friends? I forgot how much I love that silly game.
Unfortunately, I think that I'm coming down with a cold--I'm feeling particularly ill today, but in a different way than usual. I'm guessing that going on a plane with a low white blood cell count made me pretty susceptible to catching whatever colds are circulating these days, so it's not overly surprising to me.
I still haven't gotten used to the cold weather here. It's so crazy how much of a bite there is in the air! I got pretty adjusted to the heat and humidity in Dar. I am getting more adjusted to other things, although things like American currency and tea kettles are still 'noticeable' to me. It's hard to explain--I haven't been gone long enough for things to seem overly strange, but I do seem to notice certain things that I think I'd normally take for granted. I actually pay attention to quarters when I see them, using a washing machine is still extremely exciting, and it's also really neat that I don't have to do very much to get a glass of clean drinking water.
Also, Words With Friends? I forgot how much I love that silly game.
Saturday, November 17, 2012
November 17, Shopping
So, I am posting via my new phone. Super snazzy! Getting the phone today was a big headache, however. My prepaid phone dreams were foiled after a lot of wasted browsing time, so I wound up back in a contract with AT&T. I do love my new iPhone, though, so I guess it's worth it. (I'm still frustrated that you can't just buy a prepaid phone and switch it to any carrier you want, whenever you want. Plus, I must say that the prepaid options out there are pretty crappy for the prices charged.) Disappointing times at Best Buy, but ultimately I do love this new phone so it works out.
Yesterday I saw Dr. Aker, who specializes in chiropractic and homeopathic medicine. He told me to stop eating fruit and to focus on vegetables, eggs, fresh fish, and some (free range) chicken from time to time. No sugar, nuts, shellfish, simple carbs etc. He also plans on running a nutrispect exam on me on Monday, and gave my neck some adjustments that might help my parasympathetic nervous system cooperate better. I will see my regular doctor on the twenty-sixth of this month, and then hopefully follow up with a gastroenterologist. Thanksgiving is making scheduling difficult. Anyway, I do hope things start improving soon. It will probably take at least two months to feel a real change...or so Dr. Aker said. For now I am just bearing with my body being seriously upset at me and focusing on the good things in my life. Good family, good friends, my dog, and all the joys of America!
Anyway, speaking of good things, I got to spend time with two of my favorite people in the world last night. Joan and Eric are basically my godparents--and they came over for dinner last night. It was really nice to catch up with them and share stories from TZ. I wish I had two years worth, but I do have plenty of new knowledge to share just from five and a half months abroad!
I visited the Young family this morning and gave the kids their gifts. It was fun to see them--the twins have gotten so big! (My mom works for the Youngs and they have three small, adorable kids...two twin boys and a daughter who is about to turn four.). I was shown a puzzle piece of Africa upon giving Emily her new stuffed elephant. She really is a smart cookie. Anyway, it made me realize that I truly do miss working with kids--they are fun.
I bought new clothes today. I actually got some size 0 and size 3 pants, which is crazy to me since I have a notoriously large rear-end. It was fun to get new jeans and some nice sweaters. Adjusting to the cold is hard! I need layers! I also just really liked spending the day with my mom. I have missed her a lot, so it was nice to have a girl's day out.
Lastly, I also got to see my friend Jesse Whitney today. We now have good vegetable-based meal plans and some tacky Christmas celebration ideas in the works. I can't wait to see everyone in my friend circles--it is a good time of the year to be home.
Yesterday I saw Dr. Aker, who specializes in chiropractic and homeopathic medicine. He told me to stop eating fruit and to focus on vegetables, eggs, fresh fish, and some (free range) chicken from time to time. No sugar, nuts, shellfish, simple carbs etc. He also plans on running a nutrispect exam on me on Monday, and gave my neck some adjustments that might help my parasympathetic nervous system cooperate better. I will see my regular doctor on the twenty-sixth of this month, and then hopefully follow up with a gastroenterologist. Thanksgiving is making scheduling difficult. Anyway, I do hope things start improving soon. It will probably take at least two months to feel a real change...or so Dr. Aker said. For now I am just bearing with my body being seriously upset at me and focusing on the good things in my life. Good family, good friends, my dog, and all the joys of America!
Anyway, speaking of good things, I got to spend time with two of my favorite people in the world last night. Joan and Eric are basically my godparents--and they came over for dinner last night. It was really nice to catch up with them and share stories from TZ. I wish I had two years worth, but I do have plenty of new knowledge to share just from five and a half months abroad!
I visited the Young family this morning and gave the kids their gifts. It was fun to see them--the twins have gotten so big! (My mom works for the Youngs and they have three small, adorable kids...two twin boys and a daughter who is about to turn four.). I was shown a puzzle piece of Africa upon giving Emily her new stuffed elephant. She really is a smart cookie. Anyway, it made me realize that I truly do miss working with kids--they are fun.
I bought new clothes today. I actually got some size 0 and size 3 pants, which is crazy to me since I have a notoriously large rear-end. It was fun to get new jeans and some nice sweaters. Adjusting to the cold is hard! I need layers! I also just really liked spending the day with my mom. I have missed her a lot, so it was nice to have a girl's day out.
Lastly, I also got to see my friend Jesse Whitney today. We now have good vegetable-based meal plans and some tacky Christmas celebration ideas in the works. I can't wait to see everyone in my friend circles--it is a good time of the year to be home.
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